Do you believe that God has a big plan for your life? Do you ever sit around and wonder what’s going to happen to me? Am I going to be staying at this part of my life forever? Will things ever get better?
I used to feel like He didn’t have much in store for me. For years I felt like God had forgotten me and I thought things were going to stay the way they were. You see, for years and years I was sick. I went to many doctor appointments trying to find out why I was sick all the time. I remember throwing up every morning and then having to go to school. A lot of the time I went through almost a whole day without eating. Of course, no one knew about it, no one could tell. I was facing a battle on my own. There’s a saying that says those who face battles on their own are strong. God sees everything that you go through. The big and the small. I wish I could see then how all that I went through was going to make me into the strong woman of God that I am today. Little did I know that I was going to have a youtube channel of 98 subscribers. Little did I know I was going to travel to the place I wanted to the most which is the Holy Land; Egypt,Israel and Jerusalem. Little did I know that I was going to swim in the Sea of Galilee where Jesus walked on water. Little did I know that my love for God was going to be this strong and that He is the only one who can truly make me happy. And little did I know I was going to try and write a book someday.
So, there is a scripture that says (which I didn’t know this verse before so I was very amazed when I found this verse) “In the same way, I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be reborn” Isaiah 66:9 It’s like what happened to me. Much happened to me and through all the pain and sorrow God made sure that He was in some way going to pay me back by making me happy again. By living my life to it’s fullest. He’s truly like a Father looking out for his son/daughter.
There’s much more to my story. I was diagnosed with 22q deletion syndrome otherwise known as Velo Facial Cardio syndrome when I was about 10-11 years old. I always knew I learned differently from other people and was different from others. Even my family. My disability God made me to have is called an invisible disability. Which is hard sometimes for me because then other people won’t really see your struggles and what you deal with. Because people look at you more from the outside then what’s on the inside that really counts. I have struggles where I have a hard time explaining things when I worked at a book house for a while which is a whole other story I will talk about soon. I noticed even more during my experience there that I learned a lot differently and slower than the people there. There were a couple people who I kind of got jealous of because they could do their job so well. I wanted that. I loved with all my heart working at Baker which is a christian book store. I knew why I couldn’t get to where they were because of my disability and sometimes I thought that was unfair. I tried my hardest to the point where I couldn't anymore. They had to let me go, long story short. But now I feel maybe God has something even more in store for me than I ever thought possible. That’s why I’m trusting God with my whole heart for what the next step in my life is. Life truly is a journey with God and an adventure with new surprises everyday. It’s impossible at least to me to find God to be boring. Do you trust God with your life?
“For I know the plans I have for you, “Declares the Lord” plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you a hope and a future” Jeremiah 29:11