Have you been where you didn't have confidence in who you were? I think we have all been there at some point in our lives. Sometimes we might just not feel confident in ourselves and where we are in life. When we are in that state of mind it's easy to wish we were like someone else or that our lives were like someone else's life. It's easy to feel that way when you're not confident in who God made you to be.
One point in my life for a while I was not comfortable with who I was and where I was in life. Every now and then us women have times in our lives when we don't like a certain part about ourselves.I had a lot of self doubt and low self-esteem. Someday's I even daydreamed what it would be like if I was like one of my favorite celebrity. I asked God a lot of questions like "Why was I created like this?" or "Why am I weak?" or "Why can't I be pretty like all the other girls?". We all have questions like this. When I was not confident in who I was it was easy for me to always worry about what other people thought of me or if they judged me. So when I felt like this I had more anxiety too. Over time when my relationship with God grew stronger around ages 15-16 I started slowly becoming more and more confident in who I was. When I started digging deeper into God's word and reading verse such as "I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful I know that full well" Psalm 139:14 and "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous, Do not be frightened and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go" Joshua 1:9. Reading these type of verses gave me much comfort and hope that God's word completely changed my life and how I think of myself and His word has given me purpose.
So throughout this journey of low self esteem and not liking who I was I went from feeling self-consious and having severe anxiety and feeling like I didn't have a purpose to be comforted by God's word daily and having God's presence within me and my life and learning to know and having God's word being read over me to tell me who I am and that I am a child of God and that I am deeply loved by my Heavenly Father and finding my purpose in God by having the privilege to live out God's word and loving God with all my heart, soul and mind.
When I discovered the verse "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD' plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11
Can you imagine my excitement and my joy in God I found when I truly found Him and my purpose? When I was struggling to accept who I was and if God had a plan for my life? For a few months in my life I was feeling kind of "Depressed" from when I was sick and in bed a lot I was asking God questions like "Why do I have this sickness?" or "Why do I have a disability?" or "Why do I have to be different from others?". All these thoughts and questions flooded my mind through that hard season in my life. I wish I knew sooner how God saw me. But I am glad that I found God when I did. Are you having a hard time accepting who you are and accepting where your life is? When you come to a point in your life like I did when for a little while I was struggling with depression and feeling like there was nothing for my life then God came in and made my life better. I believe if God did that for me He can do that for you. When you know God and have a relationship with Him you can have peace with who you are and where your life is because like the verse says up above "Our life is hidden in Christ Jesus" and we don't have to not like who we are. God loves us just as we are and has a plan for our life and we don't have to wish we were like someone else. Because we are fearfully and wonderfully made in the image of God and have purpose in our life with God.