Dear younger me...
You've have been through obstacles. You've seen the good and the bad. Have made some good memories as well as bad memories. Half the world can be kind, and half the world can be not so nice. Let's look at how you've grown since your teenage years.
In my teenage years you didn't know yourself as well as you do now. You've dealt with a lot of anxiety. Not just then but now too. At first we started out with having low self esteem and barley had any confidence in yourself. You knew from the age 11 that you had a 22q Deletion Syndrome, didn't completely understand it until your older ages. My teenage years I was embarrassed and self conscious about it. I wanted to be normal like everyone else. People saw that I was different in how I acted so they treated me differently in a way that was not always respectful and kind to me. But the world isn't always kind. You worried about basically everything there is to worry about. We worried about school, how I looked, the places I went too, about when I was sick and how I would feel the next morning. Would you throw up again? You worried about what God had in store for me, worried a lot about the future etc. No one knew what was really happening behind the scenes but they judged on how I presented myself on the inside and out. Only God knew what you were really going through even if you didn't know at the time. God was always looking out for us.
At first when your relationship with God, you wanted to hide your faith because you thought it wasn't cool to others especially at your age. You wanted to hide the passion and the light within that God gave you. But when your relationship with God grew even stronger, something changed. Your faith grew, your confidence grew, especially my confidence in God and in who I am grew, your worrying decreased, your health improved. After going through all those trials and encountering people who weren't so nice made you stronger today. You are not that frail, different young girl anymore.
You didn't know your life's purpose for a long time. When you were unsure of your life's purpose and God's purpose for your life it left you confused and made you feel like God forgot about you and forgot to write your story. Remember when you wondered why you had to have a disability? Well, one day it all came together. The more you sought after God, read the bible and spent time with God it all clicked. My life's purpose and God's purpose for my life shows in my writing and in my work today. It shows through my blog, youtube ministry, passion for God and writing, encouraging others with disabilities and writing my book. It all comes together.
Dear teenage Meghan,
You have a spot in God's kingdom,
You are dearly loved by God.
It was your life's purpose all along to use your story about your disability and scares and obstacles you've overcome in the years, you were meant to use your past scars and pain and how your relationship with God with others. You were meant to be heard by others and how you've overcome everything... To encourage others and others with disability or same disability, share your life's story with the world. You were meant to know your place in God's eyes and use What God Has Given You.
"But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light" 1 Peter 2:9
"See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears,[a] we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is." 1 John 3:1-2