When you are in your young adult stages I feel like that is where you are finding out who you really are and are facing who you really are.
Just a few years ago when I was in my early 20’s and between 18 I was this really nice, gentle, easy going smiley person. Which to most people is an easy person to take advantage of and use.
Since then I have gone through a lot.
I have been used, taken advantage of, misunderstood because of my hidden disability, guys don’t know how to treat me. In all of this I am very sensitive and have a lot of love to give. Sometimes I can come across harsher then I mean to be. I think it is because I have been through a lot. I am trying to figure out who I am supposed to be, and where God wants me to be and what I am supposed to really do.
During this process you find out things about yourself that you don’t really like about yourself or that scares you. In other words you are “Facing your true demons”
For example, some of the demons I am facing right now are…
Insecurity. When you are adulting you may not like how your body is turning out to be and have some insecurity about your body and might have things you hate about your body
Figuring out who you really are- Maybe you thought you were someone else in the past like me maybe you were Figuring out who you really are- Maybe you thought you were someone else in the past like me maybe you were really kind but when you go through things you kind of in other words “man up” and guard your heart and not let people take advantage of youind but when you go through things you kind of in other words “man up” and guard your heart and not let people take advantage of you
Taking a step back- for quite a long time I’ve been in constant and ongoing relationships and I’ve been dependent on guys more than myself and God. That is not a good habit to have. So because one thing I don’t totally know what I want I’m going to take a step back and be single for quite a while and figure out what it is that I want and where God wants me to go
Pushing past anxiety- I am trying to keep on going to me and my roommates small group. Because one I know I need to get out there and make connections with people my age and two to go to more christian community events and just be apart of that. I have been going to a small group for a year now and am still trying to make connections in my small group and waiting and patiently praying for people to get to know me more. Its a struggle and can be tiring putting yourself out there and I tend to get lots of anxiety when I go but it's something I wanna keep on doing. Prayers please!
Getting into shape- Over the past few years I’ve gotten out of some of my workout routine and I’ve recently decided to fight to get back into shape. One of the things I said I would never do again is run. About a week ago I decided I have started running again even though its one of the worst things I fear. That’s one thing that will make me feel good and happier about myself again
I hope this will inspire you to take a look at your life and figure out your demons and take back your power!